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Hymnal Fragments, 6.26.14

nilesheron:

Prayer is acknowledging
a heaviness
hanging in the dark
of your stomach.

Praise is turning
on every light.

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freewrite 6.27.14

nilesheron:

how many have
died trying to
save you from
the hurt you hold;

clutched close like
a wallet you can’t afford to lose
again because you barely survived
the last time you were robbed, like
a hand you won’t know how to
get home without;

clutched close like
your past is the only
person who will ever know
the real you?

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You Are Not My Sadness

yesikastarr:

and you aren’t it’s cure
- let you climb inside of me,
then I understood.

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If you want to kill yourself, kill what you don’t like. I had an old self that I killed. You can kill yourself too, but that doesn’t mean you’ve got to stop living. (via brxkenpetal)

Lord yes.

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It is easier to build strong children than to repair broken men. Frederick Douglass (via lookitissasha)

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afrosinspace:

myownfashiionbook:

queennubian:

sapphrikah:

mytwisteddaceyluv:

dapper-dan-hale:

mrskidderkat:

crookedglasses:

negressive:

youngblackandvegan:

diaryofabaglady:

fuckthesliceiwantthepie:

thatlupa:

"faux pixie crop" "clever"
CACKLING

White ppl try so hard

Jordan was right. These white trying to figure out how to make this happen. I’M DYING

lmao white folk so lost



White people better not steal this shit neevuh! 

FAUX PIXIE CUT? Listen…

Holy shit it’s a hair style yet people are really making it about race do they have nothing better to do or

To those of you (I’m talking you, my white brothers and sisters) who don’t get why this is so funny to nonwhites, you obviously don’t understand black culture. Ri-Ri’s (that’s short for Rhianna) hair wrap, the “faux pixie cut” as some of you are now calling it, is equivalent to a white woman leaving the house in freaking hair rollers and black folks calling it a “faux curly bob” and deciding to trend it and wear it out to the clubs as a fashion statement. Here’s a short history lesson (never say I didn’t teach you anything). Since the early 1960s, AA women have been wrapping their hair this way with hairpins and covering it with a scarf before going to bed at night to keep it neat and smooth. It is not…I repeat…not a hairstyle to wear in public unless you just don’t give a fuck. If ya’ll don’t believe me go ask the one black friend you know, if you happen to have one. I ain’t talking about your one mix black friend who’s as lost as you are. I mean your real one who grew up in a house with a black mama who relaxed her hair and used a straightening comb. Being a WoC, Ri-Ri obviously knew this and didn’t bother to unwrap her hair because she doesn’t give a fuck about the AMAs and wasn’t about to waste a hairstyle on it. Yet, some fool wrote an article about how cute and clever her non-hairstyle looked.  This shit is as funny to us as when white folks were making a huge fuss over Miley Cyrus’ so called ‘twerking’ and even had the nerve to put that shit in the dictionary. THE FUCKING DICTIONARY, SERIOUSLY? Sometimes, PoC can’t help but laugh and shake our heads at this nonsense.

YO, THIS EXPLANATION IS EVERYTHING.
WHITE PEOPLE PLEASE READ.
This was yet another of Rihanna’s not-give-a-fuck moments, perhaps even a fuck-you-you’re-not-important gesture towards the AMAs and the public.

Next white folks will be rolling out the door in satin bonnets.
No lie. And watch the price of bonnets sky rocket

Wthhhhh

THE SATIN BONNET COMMENT THO.
THEY BETTER FUCKING NOT.


I mean&#8230;

afrosinspace:

myownfashiionbook:

queennubian:

sapphrikah:

mytwisteddaceyluv:

dapper-dan-hale:

mrskidderkat:

crookedglasses:

negressive:

youngblackandvegan:

diaryofabaglady:

fuckthesliceiwantthepie:

thatlupa:

"faux pixie crop" "clever"

CACKLING

White ppl try so hard

Jordan was right. These white trying to figure out how to make this happen. I’M DYING

lmao white folk so lost

White people better not steal this shit neevuh! 

FAUX PIXIE CUT? Listen…

Holy shit it’s a hair style yet people are really making it about race do they have nothing better to do or

To those of you (I’m talking you, my white brothers and sisters) who don’t get why this is so funny to nonwhites, you obviously don’t understand black culture. Ri-Ri’s (that’s short for Rhianna) hair wrap, the “faux pixie cut” as some of you are now calling it, is equivalent to a white woman leaving the house in freaking hair rollers and black folks calling it a “faux curly bob” and deciding to trend it and wear it out to the clubs as a fashion statement. Here’s a short history lesson (never say I didn’t teach you anything). Since the early 1960s, AA women have been wrapping their hair this way with hairpins and covering it with a scarf before going to bed at night to keep it neat and smooth. It is not…I repeat…not a hairstyle to wear in public unless you just don’t give a fuck. If ya’ll don’t believe me go ask the one black friend you know, if you happen to have one. I ain’t talking about your one mix black friend who’s as lost as you are. I mean your real one who grew up in a house with a black mama who relaxed her hair and used a straightening comb. Being a WoC, Ri-Ri obviously knew this and didn’t bother to unwrap her hair because she doesn’t give a fuck about the AMAs and wasn’t about to waste a hairstyle on it. Yet, some fool wrote an article about how cute and clever her non-hairstyle looked.  This shit is as funny to us as when white folks were making a huge fuss over Miley Cyrus’ so called ‘twerking’ and even had the nerve to put that shit in the dictionary. THE FUCKING DICTIONARY, SERIOUSLY? Sometimes, PoC can’t help but laugh and shake our heads at this nonsense.

YO, THIS EXPLANATION IS EVERYTHING.

WHITE PEOPLE PLEASE READ.

This was yet another of Rihanna’s not-give-a-fuck moments, perhaps even a fuck-you-you’re-not-important gesture towards the AMAs and the public.

Next white folks will be rolling out the door in satin bonnets.

No lie. And watch the price of bonnets sky rocket

Wthhhhh

THE SATIN BONNET COMMENT THO.

THEY BETTER FUCKING NOT.

I mean…

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sebastianlovett:

I’ll probably die with a bottle of Jameson in my hand and a joint still burning in my lips. No one will miss me except maybe a few good lovers who loved the good in me just enough to put up with my shit.

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I think, you just have to find someone who’s demons play well with your own. (via brookdleau)
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6/30

I hate video games
but I love that YOU love them
because it gives ME time to NOT
want to be around you
and think of the things I could do with that time!!!

I could go back to college
I could grow my hair out
I could learn how to use that storage department
beneath the stove top
I could cure PMS
I could keep up with the Kardashians
I could get myself pregnant
I could hold an entire conversation
with you
where you never interrupt me
I could summon my ancestors
and have them teach me
the electric slide
l could write a poem
a book even
and take it on tour
I could deep clean
like real deep
like under the bed deep
I could buy a duster
…and fuckin use it
I could act out the Titanic
movie from beginning to end
I could learn how to roll a blunt
I could find my mother
redevelop a relationship with her
remember why I can’t stand her
and lose her all over again
I could lose all the beer weight
I’ve gained since the conception
of our relationship
and gain it back
I could organize the ice cubes
in the freezer
by height and weight
I could shave our initials into my pubic hair
I could break up with you
have a rebound
and be back home
before you even processed
“we have to talk…”

Baby, i can do all things through the time it takes you to finish a video game…which strengthen me
but instead…
I’ll probably just do
what I always do
and play Words With Friends
with all my exes

5/30 letter of resignation (first draft)

when you decide to kill yourself

for real this time

start with a nap

make a full out ugly kirsten dunst cry your foreplay

don’t set an alarm

this may take some time

you’re suicide will give you a few hours grace period

after all you are giving it…your life

when you wake up:

check your phone

there are always those angels

who can feel your depression

in their bones

like old southern women know what fish means in a dream

and exactly who’s belly to point to

search the room for signs:

the note on the dry erase board that tells you to “call your mother”

the pebbles at the bottom of your purse

collected by the child you promised ice cream to next week

the book on the coffee table

that answered all the questions before

things people left behind

the sage

maybe it’s time for cleaning

the leftovers in the refrigerator

maybe you’re hungry and not thinking straight

when children are fussy

sometimes it’s the most obvious things overlooked

trouble shoot:

make the place he last sat and laughed full bodied

not a burial site

but a piece of art work only you can still see

open the windows

maybe you just can’t breathe

or see

with all this dark you’ve curled yourself into

consult the frame holding the picture of your father on the wall

ask him to do what he cannot do wrong and pray

pray in tongues

so you can’t argue against a word that he says

finally, pick the one person

who needs you

like nourishment:

sit down and be quiet

take a pen to paper

and I dare you

to explain to that person

who loves you in your failure

and your glory

why you couldn’t just call

why their love was enough

every day but today

why it couldn’t hold you to this earth

why your relationship

an unsaid promise of support

you broke

because today felt too heavy

tell them why this couldn’t have been fixed

with homemade scones

whiskey

prayer

or the ocean

explain they were wrong about you

being a fighter

because you lost

dare to tell them how you were alone

with their name ever present in your call log

I dare you to repeat alone

despite them being in constant prayer

running laps around your name

explain how you couldn’t be here anymore

in a world only made more beautiful by knowing them

make this letter a debate

until you let your memory win

and when it does…

remember:

your life is a room so full of love

it at times makes you claustrophobic

remember

your mother removed the word “abortion”

from her mouth

because you felt like her biggest accomplishment

before you could even kick

remember

you ARE always given a choice

but you are not always in the right enough mind to do so

No…

do not stay on this planet

because someone needs you

but do not leave it

only remembering yourself

and i know you’re so eager to be idolized 

and missed

but obituairies like resumes only get better with time

now:

stop taking yourself so damned serioulsy 

watch wedding crashers

enough of it to laugh the cry out of your voice

then call the friend who makes you laugh

well into snorts and weezing

today

do not mention the bottle of pills

there is no more need for rescue

you have safely climbed yourself out of the tree

just settle back in

to living

and re-learn stay

when you arrive an hour late to work:

and your boss is up in arms

don’t be afraid to tell him

“i almost killed myself this

morning…we should just be happy i’m even here”

4/30 chocolate and tithing (a poem for my father)

growing up

the elder church ladies paid tithes to my smile

worthy like good sermon

with candy

and money

I pursed their offerings

like a savings account

unlike the church

I never spent them

to build

cavities

never came until the later years

the sweet tooth

a peer pressure I succumbed to

easier to fall to

than weed

to this day

my father prides himself

on the knowing

that his daughter is not one for the sweets

in the moments I cannot stand him

I want to scream

“chocolate is everything!”

sort of like “i hate you”

knowing 10 seconds after

you do not mean a word of it

today I told him i’ll be working 10 days straight

he asked to borrow money…jokingly

a parent’s reparation

that most do not plan to actually file for

it reminded me of little girl

daddy finding the tithes of old ladies

in a tiny girl’s purse

and asking for me to buy him a car

I agreed

without protest

whole hearted

passed on the piggy bank

like he was owed

for love

for making perfect parts in my hair for sunday school

for showing me off like new suit

for kissing me like stay

in the days to pass

he arrived in a brand new sports car

said I paid for it

in full

a lie

i’d never find to be so…for years

but until i found out

i told everyone who asked

and everyone who didn’t 

that i bought that car

today I arrived home to a key in my mailbox

a marketing plot from Toyota to get me into the dealership

and the largest part of me wanted to believe

to bite

like it was chocolate

just so I could honestly declare I did in fact give my daddy a car

without the tithings of old church ladies  

3/30 tax season

there comes a point in every relationship

where the drives home the morning after seem too long

the play lists that once made you break into song

now make you suicidal

the charm becomes predictable and annoying

the things that are easily over looked

suddenly become triggers

and before you know it

the sink filled kitchen turns into a gun range

i love myself

i do

but I think I need some time apart from me

drunk me

in my younger years

i invited drunk me to social occasions

she turned every gathering of losers into Revenge of The Nerds

she drank the bad boys under the table

gave the quiet girls something to scream about

she sucked at beer pong

but made up for it with a killer half time show

but lately

she goes too far

two weeks ago she got into a fight with a thorny bush

while trying to use the “bathroom”

and now I have a scar to prove I lost

for the rest of my life

she texts people we’re supposed to be over

cooks late night snacks with the spinach I told her was for green drinks

she put the laundry detergent in the refrigerator

and I couldn’t find it for hours

she emailed while drunk to 3 different jobs

and agreed to work double shifts for a week straight

she took the AA batteries from the wall clock

which made me late for work the next day

and given the time the clock stopped working

i know EXACTLY what she used those batteries for

she left all four ice trays empty

to make “signature cocktails”

AGAIN using ingredients that were meant for green drinks

using just about every cutting board and glass

and never minded to lift a finger to wash a single dish

she took my car remote into the jacuzzi with her at 3 am

a mistake that could have cost us $500 dollars

that she’s too inebriated to work for

she tweets and instantly we have 10 less followers by morning

one night she went grocery shopping and decided to spend 60 dollars

on the ingredients of a manhattan

because it was too late to properly enjoy one in a bar

she had an Amy Winehouse concert at home

and made an outline of how every song relates to her own heartbreak

now…though I don’t recall the details…

i am breaking down in front of people

when Amy plays in the background

In the small of my apt she has managed to lose my bathroom trashcan

I now have to dispose of q-tips and feminine products in the kitchen trash can

she decided since we missed a few work out sessions she’d spend several commercial breaks of New Adventures of Old Christine in inaccurate wall sits and had my knees shot for weeks

but worst of all

she forgets to take an ibuprofen and drink water at the conclusion of her night

and i’m left with a hang over that I don’t have time to mend

I can’t stand her

most nights

but just the other night

mid D.I.Y bartender training at 2 am

she remembered it was tax season

and set an alarm to remind me

for the next day

of course…

I still didn’t file

but it sure did make me smile

that maybe…

just maybe…

she’s becoming a little more responsible

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Why Are Venezuelan Prisoners Sewing Their Mouths Shut?

At the lowest end of the prison power structure are los anegados — the unwanted ones — prisoners who have angered the pranes or allies of the pranes, on the inside or outside, and fear for their lives. And so, in an act of desperation, they stitch their mouths shut. Within the country’s prisons there is an unspoken, but religiously followed, agreement among inmates: When one sews his lips, no one can kill him.

[Images: Leo Ramírez](Source: theatlantic)

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